It's all of a sudden I wanna blog again. I dunno how come. I feel so relaxed, relief and happy.
I finally put down something I have always been worried about. Now i feel I am out of the cage. Letting down a failed relationship isnt easy. Puttin' down of the break up's far more worst. I have let off my woes now. Woots!
1:59 AM
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
In my life, I have no specific target. Honestly, I'm stupid and dumb. I do not know alot of things. There's really a philosophy that really describe one's life : Either you win or lose. In this man eat man world, you cant imagine when are you going to fall and be stabbed behind your back. You can only fold your arm and watched; till the chance comes for you to grab. And it hardly happen because you are competing with over billions people in the world. Money is the target for all we called as Smarties. Smarties are smart enough to think of clever solutions to earn or win money. However, I choose to be the stupid one. Indeed, we need money to breed, it's 100 percent true. but I sincerely believe simple jobs can earn a little(just enough for me to live). Despite in the future I might not lead a millionaire's life or rather to afford a condominium, I'll still be contented. because I still have my family and friends. I want my family and friends more. so what's the point of bein' too rich or wealthy? Money cant beat all my always-support me family and all my true friends. I love my family most, so does all my dear friends! hehe
4:03 PM
Monday, March 24, 2008
It is like all of a sudden I wanna blog.
I dunno who might see this post. Whoever it is, I guess you are an lucky one... I rarely feel down ... And now I wanna cry ... I wanna stop my last moment of breathin'
All things will finally come to an end. NO? That was my last relationship. It started so fast and end so soon. It's nostagic.
I thought my heart is completely frozen. I thought I have actually completely get over the lost of my ex, lately when I heard nothing of my ex I feel so emo. I realized I was all along trying to fake my sadness.
It cried til' all my tears dried up, and till my last whole teardrops; the pain of losin' my ex doesnt fade.
I really need a shoulder to cry on. It's damn true. I was on the verge of breaking down. I longed to forget everything. At least a portion of it. Who doesnt hate to remember pain memories? The break up? I wanna bury the past and start afresh. I wanna a life to do without the presence of my ex.
I hate myself. I hate myself to have a strong memories that can hold a thousand pieces of memory of my ex. Im so craze about letting all my shoutin' out. I wanna scream and shout. I pray god who he can erase my past memories.
Time do swept away pain and sad memories. I don't deny that it applies to many people but I do want to be honest that it doesnt do any wonders on me. Absence only make my heart grow more fonder.
I was in a hurry to make my ex go away. Single's life sucks. And life's suck. Help!
10:09 AM
Monday, March 10, 2008
I woke up around 11am today. We were visiting our garndma in the hospital.
Around 7pm, we reached our grandma's house. My brother and I invented a new game. And we aimed to practise it to perfect so to show off our skills the next time.
And we also planned for a chalet at december. Our chalet will only be hold for our cousins and oursleves.
1:33 AM
Friday, March 7, 2008
That's a brand new day... xD The moment I woke up from my bed, I on my comp for the MSN.
After MSN-ing, I was asked to tuitor for the 2 kids. The kids called my house this morning early at 9am.
It began with me alone heading Bedok. It was only my mom offered my brother 10 bucks then he promised to accompany me for lunch at Bedok. We took 15 minutes walking to Whitesands. It was a damn hot weather. I couldn't resist sweating thruout the journey there.
Cool refreshing air welcome us when we entered the MRT station. It took around 10 minutes to reach Bedok interchange. Again, we walked to block 511 market for lunch. I ordered wantan noodle, while my brother orderes stirred fried with same noodles I had. The blurred aunty thought that we were ordering 4 plates of noodles. lol.
In the end, to her horror, she was mortified and then gave a slly laugh. and yanked out, " haha. I thought you were odering 4 plates.. hahahas."
My hungry brother ordered another round of the same dish. Damn! While he was having the second plate, I was still sipping the soup. My throat just ain't well enough to take the food. The same auntie can and comment to my brother, " wah, your FRIEND still haven finish yet you so fast finish." hahas ( i know it's broken english xD)
Well, there came a serious mistakening case. You see! Now it totally prove that my looks totally represent different kind of my brother. We as ifd were any brother relationships. We looks like friends to the others while we were walking together =.= There was a time the same thing happened. This was around 3 years ago. There's this auntie in the photoshop thought that my brother and I were classmates. It's weird right?
Around 30 minutes of lunch, my brother and I visited my student house. Well, the tuition started at around 1pm. I took 2 and a half hours to complete their silly maths holiday assignments. They aint any fast kids. They can't read english. That's the problem why I have to guild them of each and every questions on Maths practise paper.
I took a long 3 hours nap on my students' house. It was a really tiring day. I slept less than five hours the previous night.
Around 6.30pm, my brother and I left the house. We chatted about the Jay chou "guan lan" thingy. It was damn hilarious when my brother mentioned about how strings attached to Jay chou shirt that cause him to "fly" and threw the basketball to its net. We were talkin' about how's embarass it's gonna be to have string attached to score for his team. It's a losing face game! hahas xD
We travelled for 25 minutes to our grandma house. It was our eldest uncle's son birthday today. Everyone was there. I was suprise to see my fourth aunt's eldest son there. it was a once in a blue moon case for that guy to visit grandma's house. Usually we didnt chat with him and sista.
It bored me out completely. I just stepped into the house for a few minutes and went out again. I walked around the streets alone. It was a nice walk. The sceneries around me really cool off my woes.
I took around 26 minutes brisk walk and back to the house. I walk thru the dark corridor and stopped at my grandma's room window. I peeped thru it and saw Joanna there. So I signalled her and asked her to walk around with me.
Joanna coincidentally finding me to kill her bore too. It was decided that we went downstair and have a walk. My brother and wei xuan went down for a basketball practise. Wel I could have went down for a cool basketball session. I wasn't much of a good basketball player, so it will be a disguise if I were there. Not only that, it also concerned that I didn't have talking between with that cousin of mine. So yeah.
We walked around the neighbourhood. We were hungry but we weren't determined to taste the steamboat. Sounds extremely gross for us. I brought her to the market opposite my grandma's flat. I had my sweet dessert while we chatted around.
We gotta seven eleven for the sake of solving Joanna's craving of food. I bought her some fine cup noodle, and were than heading to the playground.
And hey, u know what we saw? GANGFIGHT! well, not really gangfight but just a bully case. It looks so much like a gangfight except there was fewr people. From the darkness, I could see the figure of a poor fellow getting punched by two armed guy. Many people surrounded and watched the free fighting show. Much of a curiosity, I drew nearer to take a clearer vision of it.
Joanna nudged me and called me a kaypo. haha. If I weren't "kaypo" I wouldn't call a Singaporean ..
Some people took out their phone and took the whole fight. There were also some people calling for the police. Everything settled after a quarter of an hour.
We sat down on the merry-go-round spaceship. She ate her noodles while I stared at the starry night sky. Joanna started to deliver her stories of her family of the past.
She told me about the stories of her poor elder brother. It was kinda sad to know the treatment he got from their paternal cousins.
11:22 PM
I was coughing terribly while writting this blog now! argh!
It's so disheartening. I have had a seriously bad cough yesterday night and I couldn't sleep well. I was not much believer of god, soceries, ghosts, curse and stuffs, but this time I really do have a little believe of getting pinned down. ( cursed otherwise)
I have a serious headache too. The whole night I was praying that I wouldnt resort to count sheeps. The whole midnight i was like non-stop applying oil on my head, my chest and my throat. So terrible.. To stop the cough from coming in, I made myself a honey-lemonade. It soothed my lungs. hahas. At last I felt my sleepy eyes at 9am. Woots! Finally can sleep le.
Life before 9am this morning, I tried to pass time down by reading some comics, watching cartoon ( childish seh) after msn-ing. I felt so fed up after serveral way of making myself sleep. If my lungs allow me to do sport, I could have run for miles to make myself tired again.
It was a bad day. (yesterday) I actually burned 23 bucks! Woots! The consultation fee is so ex! 20 bucks!!! Life's suck sometimes. IF I weren't sick in any state or what, I could have earn 20 bucks today. Hmm, sounds sort of a great earner, right?
Damn, I feel not so cold yesterday. I usually could have shiver under my bed. It's midnight and my wall digital clock flashes 24 degree. Sounds so cold right?
I hate to complain but this time round, I've been scared stiff. I actually cough some blood out from my lungs.. I have a serious sore throat too!O.o What does that mean?
2:34 PM
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
One small family. Daddy, son and daughter. And I just got a kiss by my son. lolx
My new weird hairstyle!
LOL!
SMILE XD
lol. Old photo from the 60s last century. This is when I was still in my 10s .
Me and my daughter.. haha XD
2:14 AM
It's another typical day of boredom. I spent the fine bored few hours in front of the comp. The whole day I'm making some films for myself. lol
Around 5.30, the rain poured. It added a bagful more of boredom. I fumbled for the umbrella and rushed down the stairs. The bus 17 didnt take long to come.
Prior to the tuition, I went for a hair cut. lol. On a rainy day, the barber shop is filtered with dimmed orange light. As I started in the shop, a barber gal in her 10s stopped me. I was told to wait for a while. Well, it takes around 10 minutes before a guy barber spoke gently to me, " shuai ge, hao le. ni ke yi lai le" DAMN sacarstic greetings. shuai ge? come on.
I must say, that cantonese barber guy sounds somewhat sissy. It got me some hair stick out when he spoke.
Under the dim lighting, I saw a thick black coated skin under my eyes - dark cirles... GOD damn! I don't dare to look at the mirror. Looks damn ugly.
That stinky canto barber greets me, " you look so tired. What happen?" I just gave a slight smile. The next 5 minutes he asked me,"wei shen me ni bu gang kan jing zi..." ( Why didnt you dare to look into mirror?) SLAP YOU ah! I look so ugly. It only make me more demoralize with an ugly eye bag.
My grandma is admitted to hospital for a medical check up today. Hope she's fine.i wondered what happen. She's just been admitted to hospital early last month. She's all fine after she released from there. Why is there a need to do medical check-up?
Well, I feel so mad today. The boy reluctant to study. he kept fumbling for my handphone in my pocket ( which I didnt bring today). Hmm. My students today was so carefree, nonchalent to what I teach them. The gal's attitude is still acceptable. At least she's learning her spelling. Well, as for that boy, he cant even do simple sums of Addition and subtraction ( eg 3+3=6)
Isnt it so bad?
Well, I'm not feeling completely mad the whole tuition hours. I have some fun too. Their dad bought a giant bald head baby boy doll. It laughs non-stop when you clap your hand in front of it. Sounds hilarious. And I love to punch its stomach so much. And too, I love to place the laughing doll's lip to the asshole of my student boy. It sounds damn hilarious! XXD!!
My dad came to fetch me after the tuition! hahas
1:03 AM
Sunday, March 2, 2008
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Saturday, March 1, 2008
2:58 AM
Welcome!
Firstly i would like to welcome you guys to come to my blog.. Ryan here..Effort appreciated..Stay on and read on my life.. :)
One small family. Daddy, son and daughter. And I just got a kiss by my son. lolx
My new weird hairstyle!
LOL!
SMILE XD
lol. Old photo from the 60s last century. This is when I was still in my 10s .
